I have two huge mid-semester exams, one next Thursday, and the other next Friday. Notice how I have no days between the two? Notice how I have less than one week before having to sit both of them?
WHY AM I PROCRASTINATING.
You know, the worst thing is that I'm not even procrastinating using anime- I'm just watching random clips and researching random people. My reasoning for not watching anime? It's a lengthy source of procrastination that I can't afford to do.
And yet, I can spend the WHOLE LITERAL DAY in such a pointless fashion.
Today, I only studied a grand total of 6 pages.
How many pages do I need to study? Oh, that's right, MORE THAN 100 COMBINED. Not including all the exercise and practice questions that I also need to do in addition to theory memorisation.
I have not procrastinated this hard for a long time. But I think a large part of it may be that last Friday (yesterday), I sat a quiz which I spent a whole 7 days determinedly studying for- I mean, like waking up at ungodly hours to do some hard-core study on.
Let's just say that after I completed the quiz, I felt a slight, odd sense of defeat. And now, a whole 24 hours or so later, that feeling has just intensified.
A person keeps on telling me "You're trying too hard". But if I'm already trying this hard, and this is as far as I can go, I don't know what else I can do to make up for my pathetic self. I don't want to be useless, because if I'm useless, I won't be needed by anyone, or even considered important to anyone. I don't want to be useless.
Anyways, back to the whole procrastination idea.
In my desperate bid to stop procrastinating, I googled "How to stop procrastinating". Some webpage recommended that I use a 2-minute method, where if something can be done in 2 minutes, do it.
I don't think I can manage to study 100+ pages in 2 minutes. Even 1 page doesn't take that quick to study. What a helpful suggestion that was.